I did it. I told him. I spoke to him about how I feel. I worry that I broke his heart when I did. I worry that I poured salt on healing wounds and added insult to injury, but I couldn't hold my breath anymore. I needed to clear the air before I fell apart. Before I was past the point of no return and our relationship was unsalvageable. I needed to let him know I was going down so he could catch me. I feel selfish for this. I feel like I caused him pain by being honest. I love him. I never want him to feel pain. I never want him to feel hardship and for him I only want the best. But I can't live like this anymore. I feel broken, as a result what we have feels broken. My love when I said fix it, I meant fix us. Fix me. I feel like now that I've said everything to you, it's time to rebuild. Time to rise from the ashes, and pain and start anew.
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